Alexander Pope, in his Universal Prayer
After two days of long meetings that started by 8am and didn’t end until after 10pm, I’m happy to be back in an airport.
I know people usually don’t like airports and enjoy the destination more—for obvious reasons—but I’m drawn to airports. I enjoy the people-watching opportunities and the time to sit and read and the thoughts I finally am not distracted from and the work I get done. Airports thrill me, and fortunately I enjoy traveling alone. I tend to fly a lot by myself.
Anyway, it’s time to board and I’m happy to be heading home where the people I love are.
Once more I’m in an airport terminal. Flights won’t be bad today, but I will be arriving in Minneapolis around 1030 tonight.
I’ve got my work cut out for me to do on the plane, so I’m happy with the lack of distractions.
Agreeing to a job that requires me to raise financial support has caused me so much stress and anxiety. I generally avoiding talking to most people I know, even people I like, because I get anxious over it. I suppose now, after twenty-three years, that it isn’t a normal thing? Who knows.
But I don’t call friends on the phone or text them or say hi in passing because I get nervous. And that sounds completely lame and pitiful. I am a pitiful being. Yet it’s true, and having to say to people, “Will you commit to financially supporting me?” definitely doesn’t help the situation.
So if in a month I am sent home, I can guarantee it’s because I didn’t have enough funding.
Twenty days from now I’ll be on my way to Malaysia, starting a two year journey of doing business around the world. And right now, I don’t feel excited. Or sad. Or anything. Twenty days is just too far off in the future, I guess.
But I should decide what to start packing.
No matter how I feel, God is guiding my path more than I can fathom. These next couple years will be interesting as He shapes me to be more and more like Him. And that’s something I am excited to experience.
This year I said I wanted to know God better through sacrifice, but I have been receiving blessings nonstop for the last four months. Praise Him for loving personally and being involved in the smallest of details in our lives.
Lately I’ve been continuously challenged, motivated, encouraged, and reminded to think deeply.
While today calls for my attention to finishing lots of tasks, I must remember what my ultimate task is: to passionately be obedient to Jesus Christ.
How can I know Him more than I did yesterday? What can I do to make Him known to others? Because life was never supposed to be about the weekend, or Facebook or tumblr, or iPhones and music and clubs and fashion. It was never supposed to be about suits and ties and nice cars, TV shows, or hairstyles.
Think about it for a moment. What have you made your life revolve around for the last month? Was it worth it to have given your time to all that you did? If not, join me in choosing the road less travelled and live a life worth living.
Only when life is lived for Christ do we truly live meaningfully.
"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly." John 10:10