Things are moving along in my life. This year has already brought about huge changes, some great, some painful. But if this is what the first two weeks have already been like, I’m looking forward to the rest of the year.
It’s interesting how quickly someone can turn from loving you to hating you.
It’s sad that when I broke up with an atheist, he reacted with more grace and love than when I broke up with a Christian. Do we really have any excuse to hurt our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, simply because they have hurt us?
My heart is heavy.
I think it’s easier to end things with someone when it is obvious how opposite your lives are. With my first boyfriend, it was clear that since he no longer believed in God we were not going to work out. But it has been harder to end things with someone who has the same end goals as I do. Yet I know God has shaped us both for two very different paths to reach those goals. No matter how sacrificial he was, how loving, caring, handsome, intelligent, driven, and protective he was, this is the point where our paths diverge because God has formed us with very different desires and strengths.
I’ll be called a fool, a hypocrite, a liar, impulsive, and a mistake. But I know obeying God to the fullest, without delay, is worth it all. It’s not easy and it’s not always fun, but it’s right.
"But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere. And a harvest of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace."
I loved walking through Rabat, Marrakech, and Casa with Shay. These are nights I won’t forget.
I’ve been home for three days and I’ve:
I had no idea that going to Spain and Morocco would result in my life being flipped upside down. My life’s direction is completely different now and my heart was torn in two, leaving part of it in Casablanca, with friends and opportunity. It’s a possibility I may not be in America by the end of this year.
My heart is heavy. My words are hidden. And life won’t slow down.
But I’ve chosen a verse for this year:
”And you yourself must be an example to them by doing good works of every kind. Let everything you do reflect the integrity and seriousness of your teaching." Titus 2:7
Last year I asked God to reveal Himself as Light to me. This year, I hope to know Him more by sacrificing for Him. He may be a God who blesses, but I want to be a follower who sacrifices for His glory, that He may be magnified. He not only deserves my life, but commands it.
Twahashtek. Ana 7azina, walakine akhir merra kenna kanhadrou, kenti ghadeb. Ana meshi dyalek, anta meshi dyali. Sme7lia, walakine bslama.
I’ve been traveling since 6:00am yesterday—Moroccan time. Which means it’s been 35 hours since I left, and I’m still not home.
I had one delayed flight, which caused me to miss my next flight home. I was booked to go to Ohio, then to LAX. But when I arrived to the airport this morning (after being posted in a hotel where I took a 30 minute hot shower), I discovered my Ohio flight was cancelled. It wasn’t too much of a surprise.
Now I’m on standby and will hopefully get on the next flight home, which is in two and a half hours.
Through all of this, I still love traveling, even the flying and delays part of it. Hamdoullah, for it could be worse.
Yesterday I rode a camel, watched a snake poop on my friend, travelled to another city in Morocco, and crossed an ancient bridge for lunch by the river. If you ever need adventure in you’re life, just visit this amazing country.
I can’t wait to go back.
Shaylene and I got our names written in some calligraphic Arabic! Mine is on the bottom. I like hers better, but she likes mine more. Haha.
Tonight my friend Zakaria offered to tell me more about Islam, considering I know less than three things about it. It was very interesting to hear the beliefs, because many are similar and many are different. He was very enthusiastic and so I am thankful to have heard about it from someone who truly believes it, rather than from an outsider.
He even offered to continue telling me more about it in the future. How great an opportunity, and how surprising it is that Zakaria is the one to have brought it up. He has been goofy the entire week I’ve known him, but tonight he opened a door I didn’t think would ever be open to me. I look forward to more of our talks.